Yuppers

Its been a couple days...well more than a couple...since I last wrote so I'm going to try to summarize everything.
a. I'm not getting a car - *problem*
b. job is waayyy to stressful
c. the need to be independent.
When my rents informed me that I wasn't getting a car...I didn't know exactly how angry I would get. I guess it pisses me off when people say they will do something, and they don't and you have no way of getting it. So that leads to my second problem - grudge holding. I really want to the person who can forgive and forget but it seems like I can't. It's like part of the whole reason why I hold things back from people cuz I know once I let them in and they hurt me - its all over. And I hate to see a good friendship be destroyed over that. So right now I'm being a real bitch to my parents and I'm trying to stop but that will take sometime.
In other news - I CAN'T WAIT TO STOP WORKING.
lol besides that, I wish I could start my life now - without having to worry about majors and careers. To be free and finiancially comfortable is that utlimate dream that I can't seem to access. I need to stop doing that right? Putting myself down once I start thinking of things I want to do.
Think positive for once.
Once school starts, that's what I'm going to do - push against the boundaries I have set for myself. Achieve something great at WM. Even though, they prob accepted me just cuz of my sister...I still have a base. I'm a good person, I just hve to believe it...